Kadang kadang

Kadang2 aku rasa ayah xpernah pergi.

Kadang2 aku rasa dia dekat dengan aku :)

OPKIM

This is actually cerita a month ago. 2 days after aku balik from Mekah, dah kena pegi Operasi Khidmat Masyarakat (OPKIM) fer Personal Development subject. And aku mcm xberminat langsung pun nak pegi. Plus aku dapat kampung ceruk2 negeri nun kat Masjid Tanah tu. Kg Paya Lebar. Im sooo not ready fer d program la. Packing pon mls. Sumbat je ape2 tah dalam beg tu.

Arrived there at 6. Terasa malas nye lahaii nk turun dr bas. And pegi balai raya utk bahagi2 anak angkat to the family angkat lah kan. And my mak angkat tu amek 4org which is 2 girls and 2 guys. Me, Wan, Ikhwan and Am. My family angkat tu xde kereta so we have to jalan kaki la nk blk ruma dia dgn beg, kasut bagai.

And sampai je rumah tu, mcm sayu jugak la sbb rumah dia xmcm rumah org lain. And i was thinking boleh ke tak aku nak sesuai kan diri kt situ. Rasa nak menangis pun ada. Haha. Yes. I is cengeng. Then mlm dah xde xtvties. So, lepak je kat rumah.

Mak angkat ni xkeja. Her husband is guard. So, mlm xde kt rumah. And ada 4 org anak. 3 girls and the youngest is boy. Alif nama dia. Standard 4. And he is very close to Ikhwan. Rapat sgt mcm dah lama kenal. Mlm tu borak2 jela. Dengan line telefon pun xde. Ohh damn! Nak call and sms pun ssh, apetah lagi nk bkk fb, twitter bagai kan.

Mcm2 la xtvt kat sana. Aku mcm ikut kan jela. Sabar kan diri dari pikir pasal nak balik. Haha. Teruk kan? But who cares? Alif tu mmg asek mengekor si Ikhwan la. Kemana2 pun la. Mcm belangkas. And masa nak balik tu, Alif menangis mcm gilaa sbb Ikhwan nak blk dah. Sedih. And aku pun sedih gak. And i promise myself to come and visit them bila2 free.

Been there fer 3 days made me realized that my life is much more better than 'em. Pakaian selekeh sume. Diorang pun bkn selalu makan sedap2. The kids pun pakai kain pelikat and kain batik kt rumah. Aku jadik mcm segan pulak bila pakai seluar. lol. And their 1st daughter baru abes spm but still x amek result lagi. And I ask why? Dia ckp sbb ada hutang2 so, cikgu x bagi amek result. Haihh. Sedihla tgk family diorg. Seriously.

I thank Allah, sbb even after dad left us pun, hidup kami mcm biasa je. Still can makan sedap2. Still can bought everything we want. And I thank Him fer that ;)